Here is the place where I love you.

It is strange how you never seem to be certain of your own feelings. It is like a never-ending stream of new questions appear when you have found the answer of something else. It is like the stars. Really, it is like the stars, you don´t know their true shape, their true purpose, how they were made, where they are, or if you have seen the same twice. The only thing is, that I don´t like all these questions, feelings. I do like the stars. Peace.

 The stars gives me peace. I find it.. reassuring knowing that there is something out there. It is reassuring to watch the beautiful sparks of light across a dark night sky. The stars are always the prettiest at a winters night, and I rarely care if it is cold. I love to lie on my back in a place that is far away from civilization, far away from everyone, and just stare at the sky.

There is only one thing I can think of that would make it better. Watching the stars away from civilization. The only thing that I think would make it better, would be to watch them with someone I love. Not the friend/family kind of love. No, someone I love. Oh. How that would be perfect. Hold his or her hand, lie close together. Not say a word, just be part of something bigger than ourself, be part of us, be part of the universe, be part of everything.

How I long for that. Love. Whatever it is, I long for it. I want it, I need it. I think about it every day, trying to find it, trying to figure it out.